::: Guest Blog Post ::: Maggi gets HONEST about her Maternity & Postpartum Boudoir Experiences

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::: Guest Blog Post ::: Maggi gets HONEST about her Maternity & Postpartum Boudoir Experiences

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For as long as I can remember, I’ve had depression and self-esteem issues. My thighs were too big, my shoulders were too broad, my ankles were too wide, my stretch marks were too gross. It was always something. I felt like I could never truly be happy with myself. When I got pregnant with my son, I was ecstatic. I still hated my body but wanted to appreciate it for the miracle it was creating. I started looking at ideas for maternity pictures and saw Alex’s boudoir page. I kept looking for months thinking how cool it would be to do a maternity boudoir shoot. As my pregnancy progressed though, I wasn’t sure if I could, physically or mentally. I had gestational diabetes and a dislocated pelvis almost the entire time. I gained over 90 pounds and was in so much pain. I loved being pregnant but hated my body more than ever. I was proud of what my body could accomplish but ashamed of how it looked.

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With encouragement from my amazing husband and mother, I gave Alex a call. Our first meeting was AMAZING! She was so honest and open. She’s confident and proud of her work. I knew she was talented but I was worried I just wouldn’t be good enough. I WAS SO WRONG! Alex made me feel absolutely stunning and sexy the whole time. I was uncomfortable at first but her positive and hilarious personality helped me relax so much. She made sure none of my poses were too painful. After what felt like no time, I didn’t feel weird. I would never even wear shorts in public but right then, barely clothed, I felt at ease. When I finished my shoot, I felt like I could take on the world. I came back for my reveal just a few days later and I was amazed. The pictures were absolutely breathtaking. There were 2 pictures in particular that showed my stretch marks but for the first time in my life, I didn’t hate them. They were beautiful. I had earned them and I loved them. I started to cry and asked her to leave those pictures raw and she cried with me. When my album came back I cried more and spent days flipping through it. I finally saw myself how my husband did. A Goddess who has gone through so much to create a life and is even more beautiful than before. Every “flaw” was just another thing to love.


After my pregnancy I started thinking about maybe doing a post-partum shoot. The self-esteem issues and depression had come back with the massive changes to my body. My husband took it on himself to get me set up for another shoot during Alex’s Black Friday sale. I spent months waiting and looking over my maternity album. I remembered how that felt and was ready to see myself for the boss a** b*tch I was again.

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My second shoot I came in super comfortable and ready to take on the world again! I had a gorgeous silk robe and lingerie my husband helped me pick. I looked like a pin-up, something I had always dreamed of. My thighs weren’t something I was ashamed of but something I was proud of. I also decided to make one change from the last shoot to this one. For this shoot I wanted to do some fully nude pictures. The first time I was too scared. I wasn’t ready.


I am so glad I made that decision to face my fears. I got to see my post-partum body in its raw beauty. The stretch marks, the loose skin, the love handles. I loved it so much, but also saw something else. I was sexy. I was sexier than I ever had been, not in spite of the changes but because of them. I remembered just how amazing my body is and that I should never again beat myself up for it. With my shoots, I came so far as a woman. I learned things about myself I hadn’t paid much attention to before. I am not flawed. I am not inadequate. I am not ugly. I am not broken. I am strong. I am confident. I am beautiful. I am more than good enough. But the most important thing I learned was how to finally love myself.


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I’m The Dark, Edgy Girl and I LOVE Her :: Guest Blog Post ::


I’m The Dark, Edgy Girl and I LOVE Her :: Guest Blog Post ::

I am literally shaking with excitement while I am hovering over the publish button. When I get emails from our clients offering to write a blog post, I say HELL YES and post them proudly! I can’t wait for you to read about Stephanie’s 3 year journey of massive growth, self love, and confidence.


For the longest time, when I thought of boudoir photography, I thought of beautiful women, with perfect bodies in varying degrees of undress, exuding a level of sensuality that would make Aphrodite herself blush.  And for the longest time, I also gaffed at the idea that that woman in the frame could ever be me.  Because let’s face it, getting naked on such a platform is an intimidating, anxiety-spurring prospect for most women.  “Maybe in a few years when my body is where I want it to be,” I would tell myself.  “Perhaps one day, when my flaws aren’t as… flawed.”  


The headspace I am in today would tell that girl, “Hey, fuck that, go for it.”  Over the last three years prior to booking my session with Alex, I experienced a series of events that spurred massive growth and really changed the way I saw the world… and myself.  My husband got orders for recruiting duty, a three year detail that would mean another move.  No biggie right?  Except that I had JUST started nursing school.  I made the decision to stay where I was and finish my education, while he went and did what he did what he had to do.  It was that decision that put wheels in motion.  Apart from what it meant for my relationship, this was a decision for me to put myself first. It was me allowing myself to make my goals and aspirations in life a priority.  


That was the fall of 2015.  I put myself through nursing school and graduated without ever taking a dime out in student loans by working (and yes, it almost killed me). I passed my boards.  I landed a job starting in the Emergency Department in the summer of 2017.  And today, I am beginning my BSN, because there is no rest for the wicked. And as we round the corner into a new year, I think about all the things I held down in the last three years.  I kept up a home, ran the books, took care of it all so that my spouse, who works 80-90 hour weeks, didn’t have to worry about it.  If it broke, I fixed it.  If shit hit the fan, I handled it. I did that.  That’s fucking powerful.  That’s a woman who deserves to be celebrated.  

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So, what better way to celebrate the fierce, independent monster that circumstance created than this?  I booked a session with Alex.  At our first phone conversation, we spoke for over an hour! Talking about all the reasons I was doing this, what I wanted to gain, and what I was nervous about.  And it all can be summed up with in one sentence…. I had felt a pivotal change happen, and I wanted to celebrate that by taking the last of my insecurities and smashing them. This was not about surprising my husband, nor was it about anyone else, really.  This was about me.  

In the weeks that followed before shoot day, I stressed… hard.  I spent hours obsessing over lingerie online.  I wasn’t unhappy with my physique, but I wouldn’t necessarily say I was happy either.  Over the last couple years I found weightlifting, had lost a good 30 lbs, and was thrilled with my progress.  However, nobody tells you when you begin your nursing career that even on your days off you are dog-tired.  I stopped lifting, lost muscle mass, and my beautiful definition went out the window much faster than it took to get it (nobody tells you how fast that happens, either).  So, I was worried that I wouldn’t be happy with the end result of the shoot because I wasn’t my normal beastling self.  I don’t want to tell you how many packages I returned in the mail…. the mailman probably thought I had a legit problem.  But I was on a mission.  I practiced “relaxing my face” in the mirror, just like Alex’s prep list suggested.  I found all my good angles… not to worry, there were only a couple anyway, haha.  I also had a mini-breakdown about the fact that even the faintest smile made my eyes super chinky (I’m Chinese, so I can say that y’all), and one eye was usually bigger than the other…. and if you know any type-A people, you know asymmetry just isn’t allowed in our lives.  Girl, I was all up in my feels.  Why did I do this?  All this crap I’m insecure about was just getting worse.  Then it happened.  It was about 3 days before shoot day, and I just took a deep breath and told myself, “We’re gonna go, and roll with it, and she will guide you.”  


Shoot day.  It was just me and Astrid and Alex, but I swear I’ve never felt more comfortable in a room.  They were like-minded women.  They were empowered, just like me! They had insecurities, just like me! But most of all, they were warm and open and present in the moment, and made me feel like Gisele fucking Bundchen. As Astrid was glamming me out, she kept complimenting me. “Girl, your skin is so perfect. You have that hair that is going to look good no matter what you do to it, don’t you?”  Let me tell you girls, compliments from guys are great, but when you get words like that from another woman the sister love is real. I almost cry just thinking about it, because we are so inclined to make everything in life a competition as women. But this wasn’t about edging out anyone else, it was about rejoicing in the individual, unique beauty we all bring into the world. When she handed me the mirror…. shiiiiiit, I could look like that?!?! 

Time to get dressed.  First look, second look, third… we made a plan. And the magic started. Pumping The Weeknd throughout the studio.  And Alex…. oh Alex.  If you have had a shoot already, you know this.  But for those who haven’t yet, YOU HAVE NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT. All the chatter in my brain just went away, and we went to wooorkkk honeyyyy.  Alex has a way of making you feel super comfortable, even when your tits are out.  She shows you exactly what to do. She makes you laugh, she cheers you on.  She made it all feel so natural, it was honestly one of the best days.  Most of all, I walked away from my shoot day in awe of that woman.  How hard she works for her clients.  Our session ran over, but she didn’t seem to care.  She just kept going, and I was like, “Damn, this girl is an animal.”  When you see someone who works with such passion for what she does, you know as her client that there’s no way you’re walking away from this experience unhappy


Reveal day came, and we narrowed down the images together, and I swear I have never looked at myself on a screen before and felt like that. What I wanted out of this…. smashing those insecurities… I got it.  I felt them in pieces on the floor around my feet as I watched Alex scroll through my photo reel.  I felt truly beautiful.  And what I love is that in those moments, it wasn’t like a “comparison” beautiful like you do sometimes when you look at photos of yourself and compare it to other ladies. It was a “hell yeah, that is ME” kind of feeling. It was self-love melting over me, which I haven’t felt very often in my life.  As a girl growing up, I was one of only a handful of Asians in my entire high school.  Prior to that, I was the only one save a boy named Austin…. we had the same haircut for a while (you know, the bowl one? yeah, you know). But all I wanted to be was blonde, with the pretty blue eyes. I just wanted to look like the all-American, girl-next-door.  Fast forward to today, and that moment at the studio with Alex.  

There was a whole new sense of appreciation for myself; my almond eyes, my coarse, dark hair, my Asian features. The dark, edgy tats. That’s who I am. I’m the dark, edgy girl. And I love her. 


I’ve decided since my shoot that Alex is one of my favorite people.  I’ve also decided to shoot with her again at some point, probably multiple times in the future. I will work all the overtime I have to to be able to give that to myself and remind myself that, no matter what stage of life you are in or what point you are at in your progression physically and mentally, you deserve to be celebrated.  You deserve to document that stage. We all do.  My boudoir session and Alex didn’t change me necessarily, but gave me validation that I am just as I was meant to be. I am so independent it hurts my relationships.  I am moody and sometimes pessimistic and hard to deal with.  I have a foul mouth and daddy issues.  And yes, my eyes get chinky when I smile and are asymmetrical. You know what?  It’s all good… cuz that’s me. 


My experience with Alex drove home that it’s okay to be selfish…. it’s okay to do things for yourself, to splurge.  In fact you should. Because you’re important, if to no-one else, you should be to yourself. This shoot was the cherry on top of my transformation cake… to honor and celebrate the empowered, beautiful savage that I am.

| Stephanie |


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Married at 25


Married at 25

Married at 25





Married at 22 – the first blog post that I published that went viral. Seems like lifetimes ago. I remember sitting at my kitchen table drinking wine and laughing with my best friend Kelsey. We were making fun of how her husband was trying to train her to be a runner. It wasn’t quite working out the way he intended it to.

 Pausing now to smirk and think…You have to walk before you run.

 We came up with this amazing idea of what marriage was really like for us and wrote about it ---and wow the response was amazing. Of course, with the polarity of this world we received some not so awesome feedback as well. It stung a little bit. At 22 I had been married for 3 years and many of you “longer”— as if it were a contest – married women shamed me for not knowing “anything”.

 Well. Reflecting 3 years later… some of you were right. I hadn’t had some of the experiences you had yet.  Life has such a weird way of throwing you challenges that either grow you together or break you apart.

Again, you have to walk before you run.

So, I am sitting here at 25. My best friend has moved across the country. I grew a 6-figure business. Finished my Psychology degree . Dustin had 2 promotions! We Dave Ramseyed our asses out of living paycheck to paycheck. Dustin had back surgery. We’ve spent time apart, and so much time together. We have traveled. We have loved. We have lost. We have almost 6 years of marriage under our belt… but we are still learning as we go. We have three cats, own a home, have careers that we built, and I am proud of it ALL. We have worked hard.


And then I lost my mother. And everything in my life came to a pause. The house, the cars, my career, the expenses, the trips, this busy lifestyle all came crumbling down around me. No amount of money or hard work or designer bag could bring my mother back. As I was so focused on my pursuit of success – I lacked depth in my compassion for others. I didn’t appreciate anything I had because I was always moving towards the next best thing.


 When my mother died, my husband stepped up. He was my rock. He was the only person who could get me through those darkest days. And I realized that in being so caught up in the pursuit of my own success that I wasn’t reciprocating the unconditional love he deserved back to him.


So, I began to appreciate him more, and lift him up always. I poured compassion into our marriage. And laughed more with him and listened more attentively. I leave the office before dinner time and we sit down and have dinner at the table we made. I pay attention. I show up. I love him unconditionally even when he makes me mad. You see – I found that the love I wanted so badly, I had. I just needed to nurture it. And…. IT IS HARD! but worth it.


Perspective is everything.

So here is what Marriage at 25 is like right for us at this very second.  


There are less arguments over dinners and more nights in on the couch!!! There are plenty more conversations talking about our bowel movements. (we’re not weird, you’re weird if you don’t talk about your poop)! There are more flowers, and more time spent outdoors. It’s the opportunity to be in the same room doing two completely different activities, but still feeling each other’s presence. It’s laughing real belly laughs over the dumbest things like our made-up word, “dicksgusting”.


Its pointing out characters in movies that remind you of your spouse and then saying, “OMG, that’s so you!”

It’s arguing over which pet loves you more – we both know they love me the most DUSTIN!


It’s eating dry chicken and telling them it’s good because it makes them happy. Its walks, if you don’t walk with your spouse you should, some of our favorite brainstorming conversations happen on our walks. It’s sacrifice, knowing sometimes they have to leave but understanding they will always come back to you. It’s holding each other when that’s all there is left to do. It’s going to bed early and high fiving about it in the morning. It’s him giving you all of his pizza crust. It’s “gently” nudging him when he’s snoring. It’s leaning on each other through depression, insomnia, anxiety and knowing that if they can just be there, it helps. It’s vulnerability, and venting, and arguing and saying mean things but then apologizing sincerely. Then working with everything you have to change that behavior. It’s finding each other and finding yourself all at the same time. It’s holding tight and never letting go through the loss of a loved one.

It’s giving your spouse the space to run when they have a new creative idea. It’s less Christmas gifts, but more Christmas mornings. It’s making him coffee in the morning or tag teaming dinner.

Its grocery shopping together, it takes WAY longer… but you get more food. It’s less sex but infinitely deeper intimacy. It’s compassion. It’s nurturing each other when you are down. It’s forehead kisses. It’s doing something that the other person loves, like collecting shells, and then falling in love with that thing yourself. It’s ice cream after dinner because you can. It’s holding hands and seeing who can squeeze tighter (usually him and then I get mad). It’s getting up early and doing it all again.

It’s the I love you good morning text, and the I love you…  turn to your side, don’t touch me, and go to sleep ritual.

It’s all that and so much more. It’s a journey and the destination at the same time. Remember that marriage is always about being the true listener. If you can listen intuitively and not let your ego get in the way, you’ll be just fine. My marriage thrives on unconditional love, forgiveness, compassion, individuality, joy, and strength.


We live in abundance and we are grateful.

I love you Dustin.



Why I actually love Mondays.....


Why I actually love Mondays.....

The Happiest of Mondays to you Babes –


You may be thinking to yourself who on this earth would actually admit to loving Monday? MONDAYS ARE THE WORST. And yes, I typically agree with that statement however…… I schedule my Mondays as a “don’t have to change out of your sweatpants” kind of day. Which I highly encourage you to consider.


I like my Mondays to be a no pressure kind of morning. You know the kind where you don’t have to rush! It’s the morning where you find yourself laying in bed, contemplating, “If I snooze this alarm what is the level of put-together I can achieve in under 10 minutes?” And to your relief you have nowhere to be, so you go right back to sleep!


On Mondays I sleep in, I brew a cup of coffee, mix in my peppermint mocha creamer, and then wrap myself in a blanket on my couch and check my social medias until I have to run to my 10:30 therapy session


My therapist is the only appointment I have on Mondays. She is the start of my busy week and there is a reason for that. Having a therapist is soooo important to me. My brain travels through the week at light speed…. and by Sunday, I am depleted. These thoughts definitely need to be sorted out and with the help of my amazing therapist, I am able to work through them first thing Monday morning. I always leave my therapist feeling lighter and in more control of my life.


It’s after therapy that I find myself itching to get back to the studio. This isn’t a surprise, I am obsessed with my business. However, the key to a successful self-care day for me is letting my brain rest! So I compromise and allow myself to work on a few quick tasks from home…. never having to change out of my sweatpants. This makes my business brain happy and then I am free to indulge in my favorite part of my self-care Monday…..and that is being a sloth.



Once I leave my office you can find me snuggled up, sitting on my couch eating a whole bag of Parmesan Goldfish. I like to have a glass of wine every so often, light a candle, and just DO NOTHING. That means …. turning off my brain, and catching up on my favorite shows!! I am currently binge watching Maniac on Netflix and I am obsessed.  My Monday typically ends in bed watching the Mindy Project over and over again so I can just zone out and fall asleep. Then it’s on to the next day!

So that’s a little bit of my Monday. How do you babes spend yours? Would you consider a Self-Care Monday?

xx Alexandria


The Secret My Client Told Me Right Before Her Session!!!


The Secret My Client Told Me Right Before Her Session!!!

Christine told me a secret right before boudoir session.

Read her Client Interview to find out what it might be…….


Why did you do decide to have a boudoir experience?

I reached out to Alexandria a few times before I actually scheduled a shoot because I was so nervous! I have never felt good about myself. I kept psyching myself out… Would I like myself in these photos? Or would I feel not pretty enough.

I have always wanted to say, okay look I am good enough! I am pretty and I believe it! I wanted to feel confident with myself.


After seeing photos and testimonials through Alexandria’s VIP Facebook Group ….. I finally convinced myself to book a session. I am so glad that I did because……

I found out soon after that I was pregnant with my first child!

My husband and I have been trying for a year with no luck and then one day, it just happened! On the day of my shoot I revealed to the Alexandria and the team that I recently had found out that I was pregnant!! They were just as excited as I was!


What was your biggest fear before your shoot?

My biggest fear was that I wouldn’t know how to pose. I thought I was going to look all awkward and weird, but Alex shows you how to pose! Once you see your photos you are like “Wow I actually look good” haha! She’s really good at posing you the right way and makes you feel beautiful.


How would you rate your Boudoir by Alexandria Kenyon experience on a scale from 1-10?

I would rate a 10/10 but if i could the scale would be more like 100 haha! She made me feel beautiful and it really was an amazing experience. I’m so glad I took the leap and did it!


Has anything changed for you since your boudoir experience?

I am more confident then I ever was before! I used to think that I always needed makeup…. or that I wasn’t good enough, but now I confidently go around with almost no makeup. I actually look at myself in the mirror and tell myself I am beautiful just the way I am and it’s such an amazing feeling!


What was the hardest part of the entire experience?

At my reveal it was so hard to choose which ones I wanted because I loved them all! This was hard for me to believe, since I usually don’t like photos of myself.  

What was your favorite part about your boudoir experience?

My favorite part of my shoot was probably the hair and makeup! I also loved that Alexandria would play music for you in the background and help you with all of the poses. She just makes the whole experience fun and comfortable!


If you were to recommend Boudoir by Alexandria Kenyon to your best friend, what would you tell her?

I would tell my best friend to go to Alexandria for her session because not only will you love your photos, but you will have fun! Don’t worry you won’t feel awkward! This experience will make you feel so beautiful. It’s definitely something that I think every woman should experience for themselves.


Do you have any advice for other women considering a boudoir session of their own?

I would tell the women considering a boudoir session not be nervous and to just go for it! You will be so happy that you did!!! Having your own boudoir experience will make you feel amazing and confident in your own skin!


Final thoughts …. I’m so happy I was able to have this session done right before I started to show, the timing was just right!


I am so happy that Christine will be able to cherish her pre-baby body forever! If you are interested in booking an experience with me…. don’t wait…..you could get pregnant ;). Get your confidence back right now!!! Fill out the form below!


How Ms. T Found Her Forever Photographer


How Ms. T Found Her Forever Photographer


I have had the absolute pleasure of working with Ms. T on two separate occasions. The first time in 2016, and I’ve been so busy I am just getting to it blogging it now…

Haha, kidding…. kind of.

What makes me the MOST HAPPY is when my clients come to see me for ROUND TWO, because it means they LOVED their initial experience so much that they are willing to come back for even more!!! And since Round 2 babes have done the damn thing once, they are always ready to take it next level!!!

Ms. T came back for round two this past Feburary and let me say we had just as much, if not more fun then her first session. She is going to try to say I bribed her to come back (haha maybe I did, but I think we have a mutual understanding that I must photograph her once a year, at a minimum ) – but as you are about to see everytime we’re in the studio together we create this magnetic – body positive – I don’t give a f*ck about what you think atmosphere.

And from that comes – confidence.

I am going to let her tell you her story – from the beginning. Let’s take it back to 2016 shall we.  BRACE YOURSELF FOR MY LIGHT + AIRY WORK -- woahhh has my style changed.





MS. T SAYS......


"Oh where do I even start?!? I had my first boudoir experience with Alex back in February of 2016. Since that date, I have had another experience this past February and have another booked for the fall. Needless to say, I’m a little obsessed with what I get from every experience with Alex. I had a baby 2 years prior to my first shoot and ended up with severe postpartum depression/anxiety and PTSD. I had seriously been lacking in the confidence field after having my child. I remember being so stressed and anxious about the initial consult that I brought my service dog with me. After that meeting I felt so much better about doing the shoot because I had a developed a real connection with Alex. I went to the shoot ready and willing, even though I had no idea how I was going to be “sexy” in these photos. That first boudoir experience was the best thing that I ever did for myself and I didn’t even realize it at the time. Originally when I scheduled my session, it was to be a gift for my husband, but I walked away from that shoot SO MUCH MORE confidence than I have ever been before. Needless to say, Alex gave me my confidence back and that’s something I could never thank her enough for.

Now my second shoot was definitely for myself! I wanted and craved that confidence building experience again.... plus Alex kind of bribed me into it after talking about doing it for a year. Every shoot I do I just go in and do whatever she wants to do with her artistic skills because she is that good. Hell, I will never trust another person to take my boudoir photos because I found my forever photographer with her. I can’t say enough amazing things about her and the beautiful process she has set up for every single woman she photographs. I am constantly amazed by how I look in the photos she takes for me. Every time I need a confidence boost I always book another boudoir experience with her. "

- Ms. T



AMAZING AM I RIGHT?!  Thank you so much Ms. T for coming back for Round Two!!! IS IT OCTOBER YET? Because I am so ready to have you back in the studio yet again! Can't wait to see what we dream up! 

If you are ready to get your own confidence back, fill out the form below!!!!! We would love to have you!


My 10 Holy Grail Skin Care Products


My 10 Holy Grail Skin Care Products


Holy grail skin care products

I am turning 25 in a matter of days and in the past six months I have transformed into a SKIN CARE JUNKIE!! This all started when I got one of those magnifying mirrors.... I would catch myself about 1 cm away staring intensely at my under eye circles and teeny tiny fine lines scolding myself, "You're 25 Alex, take better care of your skin for god sakes." First of all ladies, step AWAY from the mirror. It is not doing your self-love journey any good. On the contrary, getting a head start on preventative skin care is a great way to practice self-love. 

You may be thinking, where do I start? -- Which is the same thought I had.

I mean if I am too tired to take my makeup off at night or put my under eye cream on, I am DEFINITELY too tired/busy/stressed to trial and error a bunch of skincare products. Good news, I have done the tedious work for you.  I have found the holy grail of products for a freaking RANGE of skin types. You can thank the magnifying mirror that I stashed away in the back of my vanity for this.


Meet Alexandria, She has skin that is DRY AS THE SAHARA DESERT. She is what I like to call a LAZY CONSUMER. She likes products that have the flexibility and strength to work even when she is inconsistent with using them because let's be real, consistency isn't her strong suit. She is not a skincare expert or a dermatologist, just a regular gal with dry skin trying to keep it dewy dammit! She is willing to invest and be loyal to a brand if the product works. She also is talking about herself in 3rd person which is weird.

Okay, let's get to it. Here are my FAVORITE EVER skin care products.

Drunk Elephant is currently my go-to favorite skincare brand. Yes, they are luxury which means it comes at a cost, but it is so so worth it. I mean you only get one set of skin am I right?  I am currently on a quest to try EVERY product they make. But if you want a place to start -- here is where you can.

Kiehls Midnight Recovery Concertrate
Drunk Elephant Night Bright

1. NightBright Duo - for retuxturizing + moisture

$28 | Sephora or DrunkElephant.com

This dreamy duo works while you sleep to retexturize and refine skin texture and tone while it intensely hydrates and nourishes for a gorgeous, youthful glow by morning. This high-tech gel resurfaces dull skin, gently lifting dead skin cells away by dissolving the glue that holds them to the surface. I am mostly obsessed with the Virgin Marula Luxury Facial Oil and use it NIGHTLY and in the mornings and in the afternoons, I basically bathe in it. It is so hydrating and leaves the skin silky smooth.

How I Use it: I use the Marula oil whenever my face feels dry which is always. 2-3 drops on face, neck, + hands. I use the T.L.C. Framboos Serum once to twice a week 2-3 drops on face and neck.

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2. Ole Henriksen Truth Serum

$34 | Sephora

The Truth Serum changed my skin for the brighter -- this product is for SLAYING AGE + glowing to the gods. I LOVE the face wash + the serum to death -- but could probably live without the moisturizer creme (Clearly I am a sucker for a gift set). The Truth Serum is an age-defying serum, with vitamin C and potent antioxidants, that helps to brighten and firm skin as it delivers all-day hydration. The gel cleanser leaves your skin feeling hydrated + deeply clean.  I love this product because it BRIGHTENS while also hydrating!

How I Use it: I use the Truth Serum every morning + the gel cleanser every day in the shower.


3. Kiehls Midnight Recovery Concentrate

$47-$123 | Purchased from MCX or Online

If you are a tired, overworked, sleepless, stressed out grinch like me, you NEED this product. This little gem is a nighttime facial oil that visibly restores the appearance of our skin. When I wake up after using it I am like HELLO BABY ALEX, NICE NEW SKIN YOU HAVE THERE. IT'S SOFT, IT'S RADIANT, IT'S BRIGHT. What more could you ask for?  If I could suggest one product to use before your shoot - this is it. Get this, and smother it all over your face, bask in it, repeat.

How I use it:  At night to become a new person, Apply 2-3 drops to face & neck 3 nights a week (or more).


4. Kiehl's Midnight Recovery Eye Cream

$37 | MCX or Online

Imagine that - this line also has an eye cream that is TO DIE FOR. THIS is #1 this is a DARK CIRCLE eraser, ever. I have terrible dark circles because well, I am tired and don't sleep. So I put a band-aid over it with this stuff. Say goodbye to dark circles after like 3 uses. 

How I Use it: Every night that I have my shit together and remember. 

Purity Made Simple

5. Philosophy Purity Cleanser

Purity $11-$55 | MCX or ULTA

When I am not using my Ole Henriksen face wash (Orange one up there ^^^) I am using PURITY. This melts away the makeup while subsequently keeping your natural oils! It's magic.

How I use it: Every day in the shower leave on for like 20 seconds to break down any makeup or grossness.

Microdelivery exfoliating facial wash

6. Philosophy Microdelivery Exfoliating Facial Wash

$15-$60 | MCX or ULTA

With dry skin comes flakey grossness, so I use this product in the shower to get that ish off my face so it doesn't clog my pores and cause all sorts of problems. You leave the shower feeling smooth and ready for moisture!

How I use it: I typically leave it on for 30 seconds in the shower once-twice a week to give myself a little peel.

Tarte Maracuja Oil

7. Tarte Maracuja Oil

$48 | Ulta or Tarte.com

Moisturizer is not really my thing (except one we will talk about in a minute) and that is because I prefer to put STRAIGHT UP OIL ON MY FACE. This was the first oil I tried and LOVED. Mainly because it works so well before putting on makeup + has anti aging benefits. I like to think about it as the primer before the primer. It gives my dry ass skin enough moisture to make sure my makeup doesn't look cakey, flakey, crusty....all of those bad things.

How I use: Apply 2-3 drops onto clean, dry skin on face and neck before makeup or 1-2 drops with your moisturizer or liquid foundation for enhanced hydration benefits.

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8. Clinique Dramatically Different™ Moisturizing Lotion+

$27 | Belk, Ulta, Or Online

I have been using this moisturizer for YEARS! Seriously since middle school, so for that reason it had to be on the holy grail skin care products list. I always revert back to this product, it is my cornerstone. And also for some weird reason, I never run out of it. It isn't too thick, it is super hydrating and it is OG. What more can you ask for. I have a travel size of this in my purse at all times.

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9. Thayers Rose Petal Witch Hazel Toner

$10.95 | Target or Amazon

I love this toner because it doesn't leave your feeling skin super dried out + you can now get it at Target (just another excuse to go there yippeeee). I really feel like this takes off any dirt/oil/buildup without stripping too much. Plus you get to wake up and smell the roses! 

How I use: After I wash my face I put a few drops on an exfoliating pad and rub in small circles on my face & neck. I follow up with moisturizer. 


10. Neutrogena Pure & Free Baby Sunscreen Lotion

$10.99 | Target

Being a pale af I do not leave my house when the North Carolina sun is shining without putting on sunscreen. I apply it everywhere. AT ALL TIMES. To my face, to my hands, to my neck. EVERYWHERE. and you should to. 

How I use it: I use this when I am makeup free! Apply an abundance!


favorite skincare products boudoir

1. NightBright Duo | https://www.drunkelephant.com/collections/gifts/products/nightbright-duo

2. A Brighter Truth Set | https://www.olehenriksen.com/shop-all/a-brighter-truth-set/20366v2.html

3. Kiehl's Midnight Recovery Concentrate | https://www.kiehls.com/skincare/serums/midnight-recovery-concentrate/819.html

4. Kiehl's Midnight Recovery Eye Cream | https://www.kiehls.com/skincare/eye-care/midnight-recovery-eye/100016.html

5. Philosophy Purity Cleanser | http://www.philosophy.com/purity-made-simple.html

6. Philosophy Microdelivery Exfoliating Facial Wash | http://www.philosophy.com/microdelivery-exfoliating-wash.html

7. Tarte Maracuja Oil | https://tartecosmetics.com/en_US/skincare/maracuja-oil/342.html

8. Dramatically Different Moisturizing Lotion | https://www.clinique.com/product/1574/26651/3-step/step-3-moisturize/dramatically-different-moisturizing-lotion

9. Thayers Rose Petal Witch Hazel Toner | https://www.thayers.com/shop-thayers/premium-witch-hazel/thayers-alcohol-free-rose-petal-witch-hazel-toner/?v=d3dcf429c679

10. Neutrogena Pure & Free Baby Sunscreen Lotion | https://www.target.com/p/neutrogena-pure-free-baby-sunscreen-lotion-spf-50-3oz/-/A-51249498


We are Survivors -- Happy Military Spouse Appreciation DAY!


We are Survivors -- Happy Military Spouse Appreciation DAY!

Today is May 11, 2018. Today we celebrate Military Spouse Appreciation Day.

In the past 5 years as a military spouse, I have experienced an overwhelming amount of pressure to hold everything together. I have sacrificed, I have loved, I have failed, I have reinvented myself time and time again. I have given up lifelong dreams to make room for dreams that fit better with this lifestyle.

I have always been overly honest, so I am going to be vulnerable and vent a little bit in hopes that you can relate or understand this lifestyle. Because it is NOT rainbows and butterflies, but that doesn't mean it isn't important, or beautiful, or full of equally awesome experiences. 

So here is why being a military spouse is tough:

Military wives get dragged ALL of the TIME. Criticized more often than not, to a point that they have to always be on the defense. What many don't understand is that as a military spouse -- you are the mistress and the Military is the WIFE. Whatever she says goes, and you must 'simply' work around her needs. As a bonafide planner, this drives me batshit crazy. I hate to feel like I am losing control of my own life, and I feel like this all of the time. For example, I booked a cruise 6 months in advance, paid a deposit and it turns out my husband will not be able to make it. ROOKIE MOVE ALEX (never plan trips or anything more than 2 days in advance).

We never go on 'just us' trips because we feel mass amounts of pressure and guilt to travel to see family in the very limited time he can take leave (raise your hand if you can relate). We miss you guys, we are lonely, we have been taken away from you to live in some remote small town that doesn't have a Trader Joe's. Yet, in my experience, it is rare that people come to visit us. The pressure is on us to assume all responsibility for keeping our family connections strong. And honestly, I can't keep up because my energy needs to be focused elsewhere. Beautiful family -- we want to see you, we miss you so much, but we also are living in a 24/7 - 365 stress hurricane, so we would also really really really enjoy visiting somewhere with no cell reception, where we can drink margaritas on the beach, and just decompress and reconnect with each other.

We live in a constant state of disconnection and reconnection. And SOS is it frustrating. We have to make friendships quickly, and we jump at any chance to feel some kind of connection with other women. These friendships end as quickly as they start and you are left to rebuild again, each time building your walls a little bit higher to protect yourself. NOBODY likes to be left. It's hard to find a best friend and have them leave (miss you Kelsey). Actually, scratch that IT IS HEARTBREAKING. The most common feedback I have heard from military spouses is that "It is very hard to make and maintain friendships." And I can attest. However, I have met some of the MOST INCREDIBLE PEOPLE through the military. People who have changed my life. And for that, it has been worth all of the other BS.

So yeah... it's not always rainbows and butterflies --  but complaints aside, being a military spouse has grown me into a STRONG ASS WOMAN and it gives me comfort to know that I am surrounded by so many other STRONG ASS WOMEN. I know now that love doesn't conquer all, relentlessness does. So keep pushing ladies, even when it feels impossible. I see you. I believe in you. I am right there with you.

We are survivors and we will keep on surviving.

So cheers to the women holding it down while the ones we love, do what they love.

We are powerful. We are flexible, independent, adaptable Queens.

And we deserve to be acknowledged too. I hope you are never afraid to celebrate yourself.  

To the beautiful and fierce military wives I have had the opportunity to work with, this one is for you.

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I am SO AWKWARD! | What Ms. S has to say about her Boudoir Experience with Alexandria Kenyon|


I am SO AWKWARD! | What Ms. S has to say about her Boudoir Experience with Alexandria Kenyon|


Ms. S's favorite color is "pink pink pink pink anddddddd pink". She is a mom of two small children, a wife, a fashionista, and she can solve a Rubik’s cube! Which is pretty badass if I do say so myself!!!! More importantly, Ms. S is vibrant, ambitious, witty, and just downright magnificent. And I got all of that and more within 5 minutes of her walking through my door.

She let me know in her questionnaire, "I am so awkward at first but I promise it will get better! I’m really bubbly and fun once the awkward stage goes away." It's surprising to me that most, if not all of my clients like to warn me of their so called 'awkwardness'.


I hear it all of the time! And yet I have never once experienced any awkwardness during a shoot, glam, or consultation (I will let Ms. S tell you more about her side of that in a minute).  I mean..... I get it.... you are in next to nothing with a person that you have only briefly met and she's GOT A CAMERA. It's okay to be nervous, I certainly was for my own shoot and I do this for a living! (Seriously I was sweating during my entire glam sesh). But I can and will PROMISE that you will never feel awkward (maybe nervous for the first 5 seconds, until you realize this is EASY and more importantly FUN! and you forget you're even in your bra and underwear). My goal has always been to create a laid back environment where you can BE YOU and not feel judged. Girl, if awkward is truly you, we will celebrate it! If shy is you, we will celebrate it. If loud and crazy (me) is you, we will celebrate it!


It is in the vulnerability of the first 5 frames that you will find your strength and the confidence WILL come oozing out. Sorry, ooze is a gross word, but you get it. Once you strip down -- the scary part is Over. Gone. Poof. During your shoot, it's just me + you hanging out talking about music, relationships, makeup, insecurities, ghosts, wine, the weather.... anything and everything. It's a much needed girls day -- in which I hope we become friends!! (and then you come see me again hint hint Ms. S!!!)

Okay YES -- back to Ms. S! Who is in NO WAY awkward at first. She is bubbly, authentic, and just downright her truest self. I am going to let her tell you more about her experience. So let's see -- did she feel awkward during her boudoir experience?

MS. S SAYS.....


"I decided to do a boudoir shoot because as I mom I NEVER take the time to do things for myself. My whole life I’ve always been ‘cute’, never ’sexy’, and that was my main concern going into my shoot. I didn’t want to look like I was trying too hard to be something I’m not, and that the photos wouldn’t come across genuine. I was scared I wouldn’t be able to pose or look sexy in my boudoir photos.

But girl, I was so wrong.


The day of my session was magical. Alex and Christina were so funny, and made me feel so comfortable. My makeup was so glamorous, I didn’t even recognize myself! The session went so well, Alex showed me every pose and made sure I got it down perfect. She was the best cheerleader too, she made me feel so self confident, like I was a model in a magazine. Seriously. Later that evening she posted the first sneak peak in her group, and I was blown away. Everyone was commenting incredibly nice things too, which gives you a self esteem boost.


I was counting down the days until my reveal appointment, which was as equally amazing as the session.  She had SO many images for me to choose from, and I’m not even sure how I managed to choose. When I saw my images, I didn’t see the things that I didn’t like about myself, I only saw the things I now LOVE. I ended up getting my digitals, an album in ROSE GOLD, a wall metal, a nightstand metal, and the phone app, and I’m still mad at myself for not getting more.


Those photos show the best version of myself. My self confidence has skyrocketed since my session, and I’ve come to the realization you can be ‘cute’ and ‘sexy’, you don’t have to choose just one.


I feel so much better about myself than I ever have. Everyday I look in the mirror instead of seeing my tummy that I hated, I see a body that’s carried two babies. Everyday when I look at my pictures, I feel so beautiful and remind myself that I’m more than just a mom and a wife. I’m a damn GODDESS.

Thank you so much Alex, for the most wonderful experience, and I can’t wait until our next session!"


Are you ready to feel like a DAMN GODDESS  -- let's get in touch ASAP. I am now booking for AUGUST 2018.


"It is a battle that I am WINNING."


"It is a battle that I am WINNING."

Do you ever meet someone and they absolutely floor you? A person who's smile lights up the entire room-street-city-world? A woman who is vulnerable, and geuiuine, and passionate! I have, and her name is Toilisa. Her story is her own to share, which is why I am going to let her take it from here. 



"I wanted to feel like ART! I wanted to see myself as a beautiful creation. Even more, I wanted to capture the great glory that comes with womanhood. I am not going to go into detail about my battle with suicidal ideation and depression just know it’s a battle that I am winning.

I never realized how truly special Womanhood was because I have always carried myself believing that I was nothing more than the curves on my body. I really thought that all I had to offer was “a big butt and a smile”, but LIFE & LOVE has revealed the truth. but I simply wanted to do something for ME to have my own proof that I am fearfully and wonderfully made!


I needed an artist who captured more than the sex appeal of women but the BEAUTY in us. ALEXANDRIA KENYON!!! Praise hands in the air! I heard about her from Amanda Lynn an amazing photographer who was doing a shoot for my sister, owner of Sarah and Jessie boutique. Are you guys catching this beautiful stream of Women Bosses...cues “I’m Every Woman”. Then I saw her IG page and OMG!!! It was everything you could imagine when you think WOMAN...beautiful, soft, strong, fierce! You can’t describe the gift of being a woman in just a few words and you definitely can’t put Alexandria’s art in a box!!!


When I met her I remember walking into Starbucks super nervous! But then I saw her and was like OMG, She is so down to earth! I have never felt more comfortable...Alex spoke my language y’all! She felt like a long separated sister. She understood all my insecurities and reassured me all the things I thought were my biggest physical flaws were actually some of my most beautiful attributes. Alex has a genuine way of letting you know that being YOU is the most beautiful thing you can do! I was worried about not being able to “look sexy” because that’s not really my thing, I have always been the goofy girl. She looked at me and was like “Girl stop! You’re going to kill it, just relax.”


The whole day was full of laughs! Her listening ear, discerning heart, fierce spirit and creative mind and eye gave me the greatest experience of my twenties!! I have never been more confident! I no longer doubt the power of my dreams! I shot at my dreams to capture the art within me with an A.K. and hit all my targets! Yeah, I’m corny so what?! I’m most grateful that since my shoot, my amazing viewing party and receiving my pieces I have gained even more momentum in achieving my dreams. Simply because I believe in myself, I see myself differently. I’m still a great work in progress but I’m worth the work and I know that now!



Feel inspired? Ready to do the damn thing?!?! Fill out the form below and let's get started!

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Taking the PLUNGE | Ms. S talks about getting her confidence back |


Taking the PLUNGE | Ms. S talks about getting her confidence back |

I am SOOOOO EXCITED to share this blog post with you guys! It feels like it has been a hot minute right? SO YEAH, LET'S GET ON WITH IT! You may have recently seen this AK BABE  on my various social media accounts as I have been sharing little sneaks of this session for the past couple of weeks. yes, I AM OBSESSED with her! I could talk and talk about this woman for days, but I figure you guys probably want to hear all the little details about her experience from her.



"Where do I begin with my shoot.... it was last year when I started stalking this group [the boudoir by ak babe cave] and picture after picture I saw how amazing Alex photographed all of you beautiful ladies. I was nervous about doing a shot of my own because I was so self conscious and the girls on the page always made it look so easy. In July I took the plunge and finally messaged her. To start off she was so upfront and honest with EVERYTHING! She's very confident in her work to say your PICTURES WILL LOOK GOOD... not might, but will. I loved that. To have a photographer be that confident in her work and to have the photos to back her up is wonderful! I was very nervous about my posing ability. I didn't think it would come naturally to me. She told me to relax and if I looked awkward she would help fix whatever needed to be fixed for that pose.

Finally my shoot day came! Alex and Christina [hair and makeup artist] were both very sweet, goofy and made me feel very welcomed. Christina makes you look like a million bucks with your hair and make up. Not to mention the whole time we all talked and laughed! After we finished glam it was shoot time. Alex turned the music on and she made me feel very comfortable. I was very relaxed even though I was in next to nothing. She positioned me in a way that would accentuate my favorite parts of my body! She showed me each and every pose and if I didn't get correctly she showed me again until I got it. She helped with making it the best and most memorable experience.

When I saw my before and after on this group I about died. I had to do a double take, like that's not me!! Through this process I have learned that you're beautiful no matter what the scale says.
Ladies don't be so hard on yourself! Your beautiful in your own skin and everybody should have a boudoir experience just to see how true that is.

Thank you Alex for helping me get my confidence back and making me feel beautiful.
Book your session soon with her and STRETCH BEFORE YOUR SHOOT 😘"



I cannot live my life in survival mode anymore | Naked but NOT AFRAID | Part 3 |


I cannot live my life in survival mode anymore | Naked but NOT AFRAID | Part 3 |

Being naked is not just about removing your clothes. It's about stripping down the walls you have been building up your entire life. It's about finding the beauty in vulnerability. Katie captured my attention by emailing me with the subject "The TERRIFYING Naked and not afraid shoot." I read her story probably 10 times over and was captured by her vulnerability, and even more so impressed by her strength. This year she turns 30 and what better way to turn 30 then to celebrate who you are!

As you may already know, the goal of my Naked but NOT AFRAID series is to show the world that beauty isn't a definition, it is a way of truly being free. Beauty is vulnerable and authentic, and more importantly, messy. Beauty is being who you are, the good and the bad. EVERY woman deserves to feel beautiful despite the constant pressure from society to be 'perfect'.

I narrowed it down to 5 women. 5 women with unique stories that gave me the feels, women with stories of how they put their middle finger up to the man and said THIS IS WHO I AM AND I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK. This is their journey to finding confidence again, despite setbacks. These are 5 of the strongest women I have had the pleasure of getting to know. These Women are NAKED but not afraid.


All of my life I was the skinny girl.  Too skinny. My friends were hitting puberty and getting cute little figures and I stayed the same.  I was called anorexic even though I ate whatever I wanted.  I was told on multiple occasions to “go eat a cheeseburger” or “you need to gain some weight” or “nobody likes to snuggle with skin and bones. You need some meat on you.” I had heard it all and couldn’t wait to break out of my small town.  If these other girls had curves and could feel beautiful then why couldn’t I feel beautiful being small?

I had just turned 20 years old, going to the college of my choice and living my life like any other free spirited college girl.   I had everything in order and was exactly where I wanted to be.  Went to all of my classes, hung out with friends, had good grades, partied …… I was the girl that had all of her stuff together. Invincible.

 Suddenly, I found myself in the darkest part of my life.  Pregnant and feeling very, very alone.  In survival mode. I felt like I had let down everyone that had ever known me.  How would I break the news to my parents and the rest of my family? How would I financially be able to support a kid at this stage in my life?  My life was over. I was so consumed with what everyone else thought about this “little girl” who didn’t have a ring on her finger, didn’t have a steady income, and who still looked like she was 14.  Doctor’s appointments were a nightmare. I would get stared at and talked about as if I wasn’t even in the room by all of the other moms waiting. I dreaded going every. Single. Time.  When I could turn off all of the noise in my head though, for the first time in my life, I felt like a real woman.  I had boobs, I had hips, I had real woman curves! I felt beautiful. Every single inch of me felt beautiful.


Flash forward to the day my baby boy was born. August 26, 2008 changed that life.  I went from worried about what the entire world thought of me to staring into the eyes of my son and knowing that every aspect of my life had just changed.  He was my reason, he was my light. He was what made me feel beautiful.  Nothing could break me now, right?  My son’s father and I had stayed together and I felt like everything was turning around. I was working full time to support my son, our new townhouse, we were doing well.  His father and I got married one year after he was born.  Life was perfect.  Then two months after our wedding I found out that he had been unfaithful multiple times.  We tried church, counseling, asking for support from family. Nothing seemed to be working.  The day that he decided to get violent, I took my son and walked out for good. 

Here I was, now 21 and single, with a one year old baby boy. Back to survival mode. I went from feeling unstoppable and gorgeous to undesirable and like another statistic.  I did everything possible to make sure that nobody else would see a single bit of my struggle.   Being vulnerable in this stage of life was not an option……or so I thought.  Who would want to be with a 21 year old, single mom, who was now living back at home with her parents?  I did my own thing for a few years, getting back up on my feet and pushing forward because I refused to let someone else control my emotions anymore.  I was my own person, I had to be strong for my son. I couldn’t be afraid anymore. There was no other choice but to pick myself up, dust the crap off, and save me.  The night I consciously made that decision, life started to change again.


Now we are in 2011.  One of my best friends of 5 years at that point was a single father of a beautiful little girl whom I adored.  We decided to go out for dinner one night and my whole world got rocked.  For the first time ever, when I saw him that night, he looked totally different to me.  This was the beginning of my new life.  He had a way of showing me that I was worth it. 

We have been happily married for 5 years now.  We agreed early on that we both wanted more children. We were both at a stage in our lives where everything was perfect to bring more kids into the loving household we had created together.  We have now been trying for three years with no luck.  It is exhausting. I want to give my husband another opportunity to be a father, I want to give our kids a sibling, and I selfishly want to give myself the feeling of redemption.  I want to feel beautiful again.

Lying in bed one night I was telling my husband how exhausted I was, how emotionally drained I have been, how I was really losing hope, and how much of a failure I felt like.  He looked at me and said he was feeling all the same things.  What were we doing to ourselves? We aren’t the only ones struggling with fertility issues. We aren’t alone in this chaotic roller coaster of a ride.  I decided that it was time to change my thinking.

And in comes Alexandria Kenyon.

The day of my shoot was invigorating! Freeing. Incredible.  For the first time in a long time, I am able to recognize that my journey had molded me into exactly who I am today and that’s exactly what I need to be.  I cannot live my life in survival mode anymore. I am missing out on so much life.  We haven’t lost time in our journey to be parents again.  It has taken each and every situation that we have encountered to bring to me where I am now and now is right on time! It’s ok and necessary to know that with or without another baby, my life is complete, I am whole, I am perfectly imperfect, I am beautiful, and most importantly….I matter.


Please leave this brave woman some love! She is incredibly difficult to step out of you comfort zone and share you story with the world! Can you relate? Share!


My ACNE doesn't define me | Naked but NOT AFRAID | Part 2 |


My ACNE doesn't define me | Naked but NOT AFRAID | Part 2 |

Something I pride myself on is shooting and connecting with REAL women. So when I announced my idea of naked but not afraid, I got an overwhelming amount of emails from women with very inspiring stories. I honestly wish I could take every story and bring it to life, because each and every woman deserves that. I am thankful for you all.

As you may already know, the goal of my Naked but NOT AFRAID series is to show the world that beauty isn't a definition, it is a way of truly being free. Beauty is vulnerable and authentic, and more importantly, messy. Beauty is being who you are, the good and the bad. EVERY woman deserves to feel beautiful despite the constant pressure from society to be 'perfect'.

I narrowed it down to 5 women. 5 women with unique stories that gave me the feels, women with stories of how they put their middle finger up to the man and said THIS IS WHO I AM AND I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK. This is their journey to finding confidence again, despite setbacks. These are 5 of the strongest women I know.  These Women are NAKED but not afraid.

After reading a lot of "it would be cool" and "I want to model just because" emails I stumbled upon Megan's email and it quickly caught my attention! I read it and immediately broke down in tears. I was so sad that she felt that way about her skin, I was so sad that society made her feel ashamed over something she couldn't control.  She was the first person that spoke to my heart and I knew her story needed to be shared because of how many women likely feel them same way and their skin. I truly appreciated how candid and vulnerable Megan was with me from the start. When we met for coffee to plan out how we were going to share her strength with the world we instantly clicked. I knew we were going to create something very special.

That being said, this is naked but NOT AFRAID part 2 featuring Megan. A story of how Megan dealt with cystic acne, but overcame her insecurities to pose MAKEUP free, to show the world she is NAKED but not afraid. I hope you feel this, I hope this speaks to you like it speaks to me.


"I applied for this model call because it spoke to me. I knew Alexandria would not only take beautiful photos, but my story would be told and could potentially inspire others to not be afraid to be themselves. It seemed so raw and empowering and the final "step" to feeling free. Those who know me know that I rarely go out without makeup, so to do an entire photoshoot without it not only faced my insecurities but it told them to 'f off'. I own my thoughts and I own my confidence."

My journey begins in 2014 when I decided to make skincare my career. I dealt with some teenage acne and had a passion for makeup that I wanted to use to help other people. So, I went to school to become an Esthetician and began working at Sephora as a skincare specialist.

Fast forward about two years and I got off birth-control to let my body do its thing naturally. That’s when things started to change. My face began slowly breaking out. Me, knowing and understanding skin, was doing what I could to manage it and nothing was working due to hormones. It was frustrating…but I was coping.

Finally, I went to a doctor who put me on medication. I finished the prescription, my face had cleared and I was very optimistic. Within a week of finishing it my face broke out in cystic, painful acne, over my entire face. I was mortified, depressed, and feeling like a failure. This is my career. How can I help others feel beautiful and how will they trust me looking like this? I cried every day, could not look in the mirror (tearing up just thinking about it), and was so sad.

People said things; telling me I must have had an allergic reaction to something, kids asking me what was on my face and even asking how I could be happy. People would stare. It was so, so painful. I vividly remember this 8 year old girl coming up to me while I was sitting on a bench... 

She said, "what's on your face?" I replied," Just some boo boos but they will go away." And she looked at me and said," How can you be happy like that?" And I teared up and told her that I try to always be happy and then her dad came up and grabbed her hand and guided her away. And then I burst into tears.

The day before a women that owned a little restaurant I loved, saw me and commented "oh my, you must have had an allergic reaction." And I turned to my friend who looked mortified, tried to force a smile, and then I placed my order.

So one day I decided if I couldn't fix my skin right away, I could work on myself. So every day I started telling myself that I was beautiful. I started working out so I'd feel good about my body, and even though my husband told me I was beautiful, I knew I had to learn how to love myself and to believe that I really was beautiful- inside and out.  I needed to look in the mirror and not burst into tears at the reflection I saw, both literally and figuratively with myself.


I began working out more, cooking, and journaling. I would do my best to wake up every morning and get my mind in a positive place. I’d reflect on who I am and focus on loving all the parts; learning that it is okay to simultaneously love yourself while tweaking the parts that you want to improve.

My body started transforming. And then my mind. I started to feel good, regardless of my acne. Sure, I had PLENTY of setbacks (and still do) but it was the beginning of my relationship with myself.

The most important part of the session was letting go. Not worrying about how my hair looked, how my makeup looked, how my body looked. Simply being in touch with who I am and not worrying what anyone else thinks.
— Megan

After my session I absolutely believe that I'm naked but not afraid. I came feeling strong and left feeling stronger. I felt beautiful, confident, and sexy and as much as I love the power of makeup, I learned that I can feel all of those things (and more) without it.

If I could give any advice to those coming into a boudoir session, it'd be to let go. Don't worry about who will see what or what they will think. Do this for you. When you let go of all of that, you come alive. 

A year later, my skin is now clear, and it feels so good. I do have some light scars (that I'm still treating). With those scars though, I'm reminded of my journey to loving myself, no matter what my skin looks like. I'm also reminded humbly, of why I became an esthetician and it's to help other women feel beautiful and find their self-love, and I understand more than ever the hurt and pain of that journey.

"The last time I felt beautiful prior to our experience, was that morning. I was so happy with how far I had come- the fact that I was getting ready to do an entire photoshoot sans makeup!"

I have learned to love all my little pieces and my wish is for everyone to have that kind of love. I have so much empathy and compassion for everyone that is on their own journey. This entire experience has given me purpose and direction in my life. It’s strengthened me in ways I could not imagine and I hope that I can inspire others to not only love themselves, but to be fearless and embrace your struggle.


"Don’t wilt. Nourish your soul and blossom."

xx -Megan

I am crying happy tears! AHHH Megan I am so happy for you! You are so fierce in your pursuit of life!

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"I am worth so much more than I think." | Miss K | Jacksonville NC Boudoir Photoshoot

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"I am worth so much more than I think." | Miss K | Jacksonville NC Boudoir Photoshoot

In April, we met up for coffee. I could tell that she was nervous, as many of my clients are initially; I mean they are meeting up with someone they will eventually strip down in front of, at a Starbucks. She had this low-key rocker essence about.  She had a take over the world with just one flash of her smile million dollar smile kind of vibe. However, her eyes shared a different story. They were this beautiful piercing blue color, but every time she answered a question about herself they dropped to the floor.  She told me she was not very confident. That the last time she felt beautiful was on her honeymoon last year, because she "felt like she had nothing to prove to anyone and was completely confident walking around without makeup on."

That day she was dressed in gym clothes and dark lipstick, looking absolutely fit and absolutely fierce. Nonetheless, she expressed her desire to loose more weight before her session. We talked for 3 hours, about everything; her fitness journey, her adorable bratty ginger cat 'Tigger', her Pitbull Monte, her career as a hairstylist, and her super supportive husband (who I didn't know was waiting in the car for our 3 hour chat, so sorryy!!!).

She explained to me that this boudoir experience was something she was doing for herself so that she could feel more confident and comfortable in her skin. And she was SERIOUSLY ready to feel this way about her self as soon as possible. In the past 2 years, she had saved, she had worked hard in the gym, she had found the right person to work with, and she was finally ready to take her confidence back!

I could write for days about this experience, but I think I better let Miss K take this one....

I know I had told you a little about the way I viewed my body. As a kid/teenager I was always told that I had “huge hips” and “thunder thighs” and although I knew my family didn’t mean it to be mean or rude it made me very insecure. I can honestly say that I was never confident in my body. I felt like I matured overnight and before I knew it my butt had doubled and I had huge boobs, and I wasn’t sure how to deal with it. As a teenager I found my self worth in what boys thought of me. I cared way too much about other’s opinions and that took a huge toll on my life and my self esteem. I had always known that I was a curvy girl but I never really wanted to be one. I wanted to be the stick straight skinny girl. I started becoming more and more insecure in the way my body looked, how my skin wasn’t clear, and a lot of other things. As I grew into adulthood I thought of myself less and less. I never really wanted to look in the mirror and I found it very uncomfortable if someone would compliment me. To this day I still get very awkward when receiving a compliment, I always want to tell them that they’re wrong.

[My Ex- Boyfriend] point blank called me fat, completely out of the blue. Again I found myself caring about what someone so insignificant thought of me and that was my motivation to loose weight. I knew I shouldn’t care what he thought but that really hit a nerve with me. Don’t get me wrong I am so proud of myself for loosing the 25lbs that I have lost, but I still see myself as fat. I was still so unhappy with myself.

I had read all of the reviews on your website saying how great all of these women felt about themselves after their shoots and I envied them. I wanted to feel great about myself for once. That is when I decided to contact you. I waited honestly almost two years to do this shoot because I was so nervous. I had always had self confidence issues and I wanted to make sure that when I did get to do this experience I had the right person. You were by far the best I have seen and I’m so glad I waited until I could book with you.

The questionnaire I filled out really made me dig deep. I remember one question in particular made me very uncomfortable. It was “When was the last time you felt beautiful?”. I honestly couldn’t remember, which I know is sad. I hadn’t felt beautiful in a very long time. In fact that word “beautiful” made me so uncomfortable all together. Even when my own husband would call me beautiful I wanted to argue with him and tell him I wasn’t.

The day of my ordering appointment, the second I saw those pictures I wanted to burst into tears. I’m not one to cry in front of people and I had worked really hard on my eyeliner that morning, which is why I managed to keep myself from balling. I looked at those images and couldn’t believe what I was seeing. Did I really look like that?! There’s no way that my body looked that good! It took me a minute to kind of take it all in. I was in complete shock. I saw myself in a totally different light than I had been seeing myself for years. Those pictures truly made me feel beautiful and sexy. I guess I’m writing all of this because I wanted to thank you for making me see that I am beautiful and that I am worth so much more than I think. You truly made a difference in me.
— Miss K

Hearing stories like Miss K's and being able to help change the way women see themselves is what makes me love Boudoir Photography so much! If you are in the Jacksonville, NC area and are ready to see yourself as so much more, holla at your girl ;)

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Our DIY Kitchen Transformation | From REALLY RED to Peacefully Neutral | Jacksonville, NC


Our DIY Kitchen Transformation | From REALLY RED to Peacefully Neutral | Jacksonville, NC

We purchased this home over 2 years ago.... and sometimes when I look back to how it was... I am not sure why I ever signed my name on that dotted line! If you ask me what my least favorite color of wood is.... I will say red... and this house was COVERED IN RED FAKE WOOD. I referred to it as the condiment house because the walls were green and yellow, and the builder grade cabinets and floors were FREAKING RED. Honestly, it was quite the stressful environment for a girl who's favorite color is Black... and then White... and then if I have to.... Grey! After that I will allow other neutrals, on a case to case basis, but that is as far as I can be pushed. I knew that it needed to be changed... It was just a matter of when.....

*** I saved this image from google! This was the listing photo.

*** I saved this image from google! This was the listing photo.


I wouldn't classify my husband and I as the typical DIY team, meaning we had NO PRIOR experience coming into this.  BUT, I had the empowerment and support of the Pinterest and Youtube communities and a super STUD of a husband, so what could go wrong?!?! OH .... PROBABLY EVERYTHING...

I remember when and how this transformation started. I was up super late, watching Fixer Upper reruns, glancing back and forth between my dream house and my cringe worthy red builder grade cabinets. I kept seeing all of these PERFECT white kitchens, and thought.... oh how hard could it be to paint my own cabinets white...I will just channel my inner Joanna Gaines....it's going to be amazing.  It was 4 in the morning when I decided I was going to just go for it....before my husband got up for work, so he wouldn't stop me. When he came out and saw me washing down all of our cabinets, he didn't actually seem opposed to the idea. He did however tell me I was ON MY OWN with this. I was like BABE don't even worry, I have this under control, when you come home from work you will have a beautiful WHITE kitchen. Kisses and HUGS. BYE.


I WAS SO WRONG. Like I am every time I start a project that is clearly out of my league. If you're like me you love instant gratification and what could more instantly gratifying then a cabinet color change. This should be quick and easy and GLORIOUS. Unfortunately, if you're also like me.... you have unrealistic expectations of your skill level when it comes to home improvements. I have been blessed with particular set of skills, boudoir photography, and I should without a doubt stick to that. Somebody should remind me of that next time I get sucked in to DIY by Joanna Gaines, to stay focused on BOUDOIR instead.

Let me point out now that instant gratification and DIY home remodeling do not belong in the same sentence, let alone in my vocabulary.  I was 18 hours deep into this project...I hadn't even started painting yet.... and I was very quickly losing all motivation. Luckily, I have the best MOM in the world, who happens to be an interior designer, FURNITURE refinishing extraordinaire ( check her out here PONZIO DESIGN, and my BFF. We make a pretty good team.

So I called her frantically, which I do roughly 46 times per week.

Our conversation went as follows:

Me: MOM SOS I AM PAINTING MY CABINETS! I NEED HELP! I THINK I AM DOING THIS WRONG? Do you sand between coats? My wrists hurt from sanding? Am I supposed to use a particular roller?  ......UGH Will you come over and help me PLEASEEEEEE!
Mom: Where is Dustin? *****side note... Dustin is the practical one in this relationship. He can basically do ANYTHING he sets his mind to.
Me: He says I have to do this on my OWN.
Mom: (likely sheer panic) Don't touch anything else, I'll be right over.

And that is the story of how my mom saved my life for the 435678901 time. THANKS LAUR! YOU'RE THE BEST.

She's the cutest, I know.

She's the cutest, I know.



This project took a total of 2 weeks to complete, and lots of blood, sweat, and tears. I took a total of 87 snack breaks, my mom took like 4..... My husband eventually joined in... after I had a series of mental breakdowns. He thankfully added all of the hardware (because I don't know how to use a power drill to this day, and shouldn't), framed out the island, adding molding, new baseboards, and beadboard, and mostly importantly, he scratched our current counter tops with a razor blade while trying to cut said beadboard.... turning my WANT into a serious NEED for new countertops in the very near future, THANKS FOR THINKING OF ME BABE!

It's not finished yet, I am not sure it ever will be, but we love it. It was the first project we took on as homeowners and I could not be happier with how it turned out. So ..... here it is!!!!!!!! Let me know what you think in the comments!!!


We are still brainstorming on how to hide the cabinet light cords! Do you have any ideas? Let me know in the comments!



We have to represent CA!

We have to represent CA!

SOOOOO yes, those are cat butt magnets...... We delightfully received a bunch of Christmas cards last year, but were seriously lacking on magnets to hang them up on the fridge! I found these at hobby lobby and stuck them in my husbands stocking. It's safe to say they are a hit.

SOOOOO yes, those are cat butt magnets...... We delightfully received a bunch of Christmas cards last year, but were seriously lacking on magnets to hang them up on the fridge! I found these at hobby lobby and stuck them in my husbands stocking. It's safe to say they are a hit.

These cat butt magnets are holding up my prized possession, Justin Bieber tickets. Yes I am a 23 year old, married Belieber, I am not every sorry about it.  See you in August JB.

These cat butt magnets are holding up my prized possession, Justin Bieber tickets. Yes I am a 23 year old, married Belieber, I am not every sorry about it.  See you in August JB.



Our only wedding picture sits proudly in our countertop!

Our only wedding picture sits proudly in our countertop!

Excuse the interruption, Ariel thought I was getting her treats.

Excuse the interruption, Ariel thought I was getting her treats.

She's NEEDY.

She's NEEDY.

Clearly so is Beau....

Clearly so is Beau....


AND THAT IS IT. Thank you for sticking with me! What do you think?!! Do you have any suggestions for countertops? Let me know in the comments!


Insert: Proud USMC Wifey post here.


Insert: Proud USMC Wifey post here.


I typically keep my blog strictly BIZ, but I couldn't help myself. I have had a glass of wine (or 3) and I am feeling sentimental! First, where does the time go? I have been married to this man for almost 4 years, it's absolutely crazy! Second, I hate that military wives are constantly shamed for being outwardly supportive of their husbands. It's okay to be proud of your husband, it doesn't mean that you are trying to become him or assume his role.... I mean Green may be my color....but I am going to stick to my expertise of Boudoir Photography (feel free to write a blog about how badass Boudoir is BABE!  ;) I won't shame you!). Third, you need a little background. So HERE. WE. GO. Disclaimer: this is about to get sappy and likely dramatic so leave now if you can't make it through the first 5 minutes of This Is Us without crying. Also, I really don't like the word Wifey.

Carry on....

It has been 10 years.... (insert titanic flashback scene) since my husband stepped on the yellow footprints. I can't take credit for being a part of it all, since I was like 14 years old at the time so I was more focused on passing geometry. It wasn't until years later that we meet (after I turned 19 of course), don't worry mom!!! It was strange, but absolutely wonderful how it all worked out.

Here is a little flashback to my husbands baby smurf days:




Anyways, I met Dustin after 3 back to back deployments. We met, fell in love at a Dave & Busters, and then we did the damn thing. We got married on a Thursday, on our lunch breaks, and both went back to work immediately following. Can you say SOULMATES? (more like crazy workaholics). It was laughable, but romantic. We talked about dreams like most couples do before they get married, his dream was to make a career out of the Marine Corps. That was never negotiable, which was something I respected about him. That being said, I always knew that our marriage would start with the Marine Corps, and that chapter of our lives would end when retirement rolled around. That decision was something I came to truly appreciate down the line when I heard other husbands playing the "I'm getting out, no I'm staying in," run around game for months at a time. THANKFULLY, Dustin hasn't changed his mind. It would be hard for me to deal with that. Why, because I am a TYPE A, perfectionist with ANXIETY and I cannot handle that kind of impulsive life decision teetering..... (you're thinking.... how do you deal with being a USMC wife then.) Honestly, I don't know. The active duty spouse lifestyle wasn't my first choice, but my husband was...so it's manageable. The hardest part of this whole thing is the settling for 2 years and then moving... but not knowing where you are moving to until you are in a house in another state or country. And then losing your best girlfriends. That is the WORST part about it all. Stay tuned for a blog post that features whining about all the friends I miss so much (KELSEY THIS IS YOUR MOMENT). But onto more positive vibes!

   So last week marked, 10 years that my husband has given to the USMC. Side note: what were you doing 10 years ago? I am sad that I didn't have a Facebook that long ago so that Facebook Memories could remind me! 10 YEARS is a decade! WTF! This is going by too fast. I have not been there through it all, I like to say that I got off relatively easy. We have been fortunate to spend 5 years together, uninterrupted by deployments. Our marriage seems normal in comparison to what some of my friends have dealt with. I have had this man home pretty much every night.  My wake up call is coming though... I can feel it. I am thankful for these 5 past years...we have seen our marriage foundation strengthen tenfold. I am sure I will need that for the next 10.

For those of you who know my husband, you're lucky! You understand the kind of human being he is, dedicated to a fault, hardworking, and absolutely selfless. For those of you who don't, you are missing out, I'll give you his number and you can call him later. This man has come home exhausted, to the point of passing out on the floor, but still does the dishes. He is an EXTRAORDINARY PERSON, and an even better best friend. He will always show up for you (even when you're been sassy, it's been proven by me of course). He's the best partner I could have asked for. He is the kind of person you pick first to join your team; I am glad that I did. The Marine Corps is lucky to have had him for 10 years!!!!

HERE COMES THE PROUD WIFE POST: I want to say from the bottom of my heart, congratulations Dustin on 10 years serving your country! Congratulations for being dedicated something bigger than yourself. You make me so proud as a wife, as a best friend, as your family. 10 years’ babe, then we will be sipping fruity drinks on a beach somewhere, building a house that we don't have to move from. Maybe with babies, or maybe with 4 more cats (I can't make any promises). I will keep my the promise that I made to you on that Thursday afternoon at the courthouse, to love and support you, now and through the next 10 years of this crazy life. Through deployments, PCSing, and everything else the military lifestyle throws at us. (And at that point we can renegotiate how nice and understanding I have to be). I love you!

And that's it people. That is how I adopted a last name I can't spell.